Echoes

It seems like mot so long ago, I didn’t have a job, I wasn’t going to school, and i could do whatever I want, whenever I wanted. I stayed up all night, why not? I had nowhere that I had to be… I could broadcast online for hours, or all day if i wanted. I could chat with friends, or drive all the way to where they were, and broadcast with them, to the world. 

So much has changed, I have changed. The parts of my personality are pulsating and twirling in a violent Maelstrom in my mind. So often now, I simply stop asking questions like I used to… because the answers that I would receive would merely raise more questions. I have a very short List of things that i feel make me happy, and getting those few things is proving more difficult than ii could have ever imagined. Im trying not to lose it all in the blur of the stars. Seeing is deceiving. Dreaming is believing. and thanks to Jessie J, I have finally learned that it is Okay not to be okay.