Echoes

Quick kid quick, so harsh and cynical
Touches stricken, cold and clinical
What a transformation to behold
But i don’t like this new, i want the old

It’s not the words that make it final
You’ve said such things such things before to rival them
But it’s how you say ‘em now that’s changed
Cold but sympathetic all the same

Lie to convince me that i’ll be better off
Oh, you go on and i’ll be happier, i’ll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You’ll be gone and i’ll be happier

Shoot me with your rubber bullets
Your finger’s on the trigger, pull it
I know you want this suffering to end
So it is forgivable my friend

It’s all to convince me that i’ll be better off
So you go on and i’ll be happier,
You go on and i’ll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You’ll be gone and i’ll be happier

Bo-bo-ba-do-bo
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo-da-da-da

Say what you mean, what you mean
Cause you’ll be happier without me, without me, without me, oh

You won’t convince me, that i’ll be better off
So you go on and i’ll be happier, i’ll be happier
You go on, you go
You’ll be gone, and i’ll be gone
You go on and i’ll be happier, you go on and i’ll be happier
You go on, you go on, you go on and i’ll go on and i’ll be happier
You on and i’ll be happier, you go on and i’ll be happier

Maybe I wont die alone.

Here I sit

Type Away

Find a thought

things to say

Things I feel

Things I see

THings I want

Things I Need

Thoughts May Drift

Find a path

Calculate

Do the math

Write the word

Speak it slow

Not too loud

Breath it low

Do you know

Who i am?

Can You see

In my Eyes

All the fear

Never Dies

Will You run? 

Will you fight

Let me cry

in the night 

Would you go 

or would you stay?

The day I say

” I Am Gay.”

I have recently been frequented by an epiphany that, put simply, gives me the feeling that I will be most Loved by the women in my life, BUT I will be the most AFFECTED by the men. How difficult of an existence this will be. I only get the sensations of what it was like before. The Mind of men and the mind of women are vaguely similar, vaguely Different, Completely Different, yet Exactly the same. THe affects of previous stimuli are hard to name category or function, but as earlier stated, it is my gender vs. sexuality. Men Can Process, but not perceive; Women can Perceive, but not Process… Men and women have the opposite of each other, but each respective part both reinforces and contradicts the other.

I will always rather be hurt wit the truth than comforted with a lie.